Friday, December 9, 2011

Radvent Challenge # 9

I don't know who listens to me. The world is full distractions  and I have such a hard time knowing if people or readers actually listen to what i say and write or if nothing I say matters. I want so much to be heard. I listen to people. I enjoy listening to view point (except political). I want to learn as much as i can about people and their experiences and lives. I want to influence the world with positivity and inspire with my hopes and dreams. I want to encourage with my words and creativity, I want to make a difference in the world.
  1. God and all the people in the bible especially Jesus. Job had been one of the most encouraging characters in the bible at least for me because I have suffered a lot.
  2. My best friend who is a guy name Brian. We dated for a couple of years but decided it would be best if we were just friends. He has been their for me through a lot! I couldn't ask for a better best friend.
  3. My mother, Pamela. She did the best she could. And she always put her children before herself. Mind you she had 7 children (one totally dependent on her). I know she is always with me and knows the truth about my adoption and everything that it has done to me. I don't blame her but I do blame my aunt and uncle. My mom did one of the hardest things any mother could do and the most loving acts giving your child up for adoption. I don't know why I was the only one adopted but I know that no one else could have gone through what I have with the emotional and mental and verbal abuse I have for 20 years of life. The best thing I have done is get out of my aunts house. My mother has given me the strength, courage, bravery that I needed to get out of my aunts grasp.
  4. My father, Clarence David. He did the best he could  to provide for his family. Even though he was murdered when I was 2 years old, he taught me that providing for yourself and your family is the number one thing to do in life.
  5. My self. I know it sounds selfish and funny to put yourself as your greatest influence but I am. There are a lot of times that I sike myself out and don't do what I want. But their are time where I challenge myself to be fierce and fearless. I am one of my greatest influences whether that be a good influence or a bad influence. It has been a journey for sure.

1 comment:

  1. You have gone through SO much. I dont know if I would be strong enough to be as clear headed as you seem to be about it ...


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